My · Crazy · Life

Today I had a kind of a good day. well till I got home. But no change there. My brother gets pissed that i fell asleep. Dont really care. I ran around school today in my usual A-day way with very little energy in me that should have fused out of me around 2nd block. But it didnt. I got a new Study hall teacher. same room, new study hall teacher. I now have Mrs. or Ms. Porter, i cant remember if she's married or not. But the funny thing about it is that she was one of the teachers in my freshman English. i love English. Even if I happen to be failing it at the moment. I have about 2 other classes im failing anyway.

I am not too sure what to do right now. My best friend told me a few nights ago that they were coming down in febuary and she was coming down to see me on her break.i dont know what to do. which that seems very odd for some one like myself to say because I love my best friend like a sister. She is my Buffykins and I to her am her Willow, or Willow tree.

These are some dolls I made online at a website called Doll Palace:
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If you want to make some dolls of you're own. The website is: http://www.dollpalace.com

My dad has been anything but what i needed it to be. I am so damned tired and im just now able to get online and nobody is on. If lauren or angela got on tonight they must have done it earlier when I was trying to eat and then went to church with my mom and her friend missy and andrea, and jennifer. my rehearsals would have gone better if my actors would have been on time and if they hadn't kept playing with the lockers we got pulled onstage. i totally need to come up with an introduction for Uncool and get over the fact that there will be tons of people watching me as I say it. I will be one of the very first people to admit that to have a lot of eyes other than just 2 eyes or a small group of people I am either friends with or i at least know of long enough to work with, scares the freaking daylights out of me. i get stage fright. im in theatre but i've never been in a play or anything of the sort. I am a Scorpian and I like to keep to my self most times so i seem very mysterious and if nobody likes that in me then they can go fuck themselves. im sick and tired of people pushing me around and telling me what to do if they aren't a teacher or my mom. even my younger brother does it. and i am constantly saying," dude i dont care if you are taller than i am. i am older than you. you dont need to be telling me what to do." i mean thats how missy( christine ward, my ex friend) lost a really good friend. she called me constantly and it started to piss everyone here off. then she's lie about how much she called here. or get her sister to. so i say to them screw off bitches.

I just thought of something when Ilooked at and opened this diary / journal. The only reason that my book doesn't feel like one when I look at it and go to read it is, because its in anythin but an actual book.I don't know why I din't think of that before? Rewritting it into an actual blank book would totally be a bitch. But worth the work. It's not like I'd have to do it all over again and try to remember what I wrote my memory sucks.

my new years resolution for this year was to do better in my shool work and pass so i can walk across the stage with my class in june. im not too sure why i made that resolution. but then again it was a smart one to make. i makde another one as well. the second one is to keep on writing my book called Friends 4 Ever and have it typed up so that one day it'll be published and other people can enjoy it. i am a very good writer im just very self conscience about what others think about my writing. every year i make stupid resolutions that i never keep. i make the same i'll do better in school resolution every year and for a while i do, do better then everything goes down hill from there. this year i plan to keep it. i dont want to stay another year in high school where nobody understands me. another resolution i made this year is to get more sleep. Ha Ha Ha. so not going to happen. but it's nice to dream on that idea.

my bedroom looks like a complete disaster area right ow. i need to clean it and vacuum it. i need to also start putting my stuff back in here sinces we are staying and not moving like we once thought. well thaths what we get i suppose. nothing in my room is clean noteven my desk or the cabinate thing in my closet. geez i am having a bad time tonight with spelling.

I have very little light on my side of the room. But, anyway T.G.I.F. I can't wait to get back home. But in a way I am sad I am leaving. My dad now lives in Virginia Beach. Don't know were though. Hopefully this means Chey and I will get to see him more. My neck is hurting from me bending my head down the way I am to write. I should read maybe another chapter of the Buffy book I am reading and then go to bed. Write more later. (maybe.)

Sims 2 on the computer is getting very addictive. One of our sims, Bianca got acne some how. And Buffy is pregnant with her's and Spike's fourth child. Angie, my best friend got her period yesterday and had very bad cramps. It wasn't good. I myself got a bad headache pretty much out of nowhere.
For some unknown reason I feel like someone or something watches me.But, there are no signs of anything or anyone, but my friend and her silly cat watching me here in the same room. Oh yeah I am sitting on my bed in Angie's room writting this while my eyes every once in a while shift.

It's been awhile since the beginning of the month. I don't even know what the date is. I still can tell that it getting closer to the end of the month and the end of my stay up here. Its better up here for me in Maine than in the stuffy city of Virginia Beach, Virginia, unfortunately my long awaited month long visit up here. I came without family to see my "baby sister", Angela. I should at least call my grandmother sometime before I leave and go home. This time I don't have to go to church on Sunday with my grandmother like I did last summer. Tuesdays are never my favorite day of the week.